Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Hi doggie!


 23 Jan 2013 

Feel a sudden urge to continue to blog.

Lots of things have happen since then… You may think this blog is filled with cobweb and almost declaring shut down. It’s just that I could not manage to find time for writing.

Ever since school starting at #Un!5!M 2011 July, I’ve been writing on MSWord but purely for assignment submission. Now, it is because of a special, extraordinary gift sent from “up there”, that give me the thought of facing the laptop right now to pin down my thoughts. I guess it was also a sudden fear of forgetting the various milestones in my life which leads to my inability to narrate all these to my offspring.

Let’s talk about a dog in the house… who has been with them since 2012… if Shinji was to talk about his bigger regret in 2012, it was probably seeking his best pal’s assistance in purchasing the dog. Especially when this pal went personally to check out with the pet shop, asking the shop owner to “reserve” a few good puppies using his business relationship. Shinji truly owe him a big favor.

However, the dog wasn’t bought by Shinji. Why Shinji decided to help the buyer was because of the intention to allow Dad to be accompanied at home & for the buyer to have a sense of ownership and adopt responsible attitude. After a year had passed, perhaps it was wrong and didn’t turn out successful. Attitude didn’t change, duty was shed, couldn’t be bother with reading and learning the RIGHT way of provide a good and positive home for the dog.

Shinji regretted his decision. Holding the dog in his hands feeling pity for the poor dog that wasn’t given the desired care and concern. Argh… Well Shinji headed for the library to beef up his knowledge on dog’s behaviour and care. Enriching himself by following a new idol of his, #Ces@r M!ll@n (http://www.cesarsway.com/). so that is how he realised that all “care & affection” given by the family members were mostly incorrect. And now, the dog starts to gain dominance over them which pose to be difficult to remedy and potential pitfall for any new family member especially infant.

Can’t bear to see these incorrect actions to continue, Shinji decided to guide, explain and show them how to handle the dog correctly. Although now Shinji is somehow seen as a pack leader by the dog, it’s like a losing battle. Because he is going up against 4 other members. Added to that, he is going to have his own little family expansion soon. He knew he has to act fast to gain leader’s status in the dog’s mind. He wont want his child to be risked been bitten by a curious dog, pushed over by an overly excited dog, frequently scared by a dog severely lacking in exercise.

Thus, he needs to change his mindset now and try to influence those key family members in achieving a similar approach to tame this young pup and teach it how to behave like a balanced, calm and submissive domestic pet, DOG.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Ya... Start of brand new year



I was screwed...
 Time wasted...
 Sweat for nothing...
 late for collection...
 F###!!!

 2013 opening wasn't as smooth as i desires.

 Was sick for 1st week of Jan.

 Screwed by another new major case in work... 

Argh...


Please freaking get me out of these shit...

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Review of 2012

It has been ages since I last blogged. Therefore, I decided to do it at the end of the year with a little bit of special reason for me to blog it out~ Haha..

So it goes like this.....



Jan – Attended and assisted in my secondary school pal’s wedding on NYE. After attended 3 of my best pals’ weddings back in 2011, I’ve gained quite a bit of experience and I’m truly thankful to be trusted by them and the opportunity to give my best in return for their assistance shown to me during my big day back on Dec 2010. Thus, for this year “duty”, I handled it in a relatively natural manner. (= Made new friends, and hopeful that I did give those wedding prospects some pointers and do’s and don’t’s.

FebChinese New Year was truly different this year. It was well-spent with a trip to Bangkok with J@z5 and my best pal.

Mar – Lessons go on...

AprMy birthday month, signaled that I’m edging towards 30s. My company “rewarded” me with a pair of tickets to Universal Studios Singapore where j@z5 and I had great fun. No rides for her but a lonely, fearful ride for me in that Galatico thingy. And I nearly pee in my pants…. Hahaha… However, it didn’t stop me from feeling young. And I don’t really feel it (30s) coming. Still thinking that I’m the same old risk-taking me in my early 20s. Ha! Similarly it applies to my All-Time favorite J-Rock band: L’Arc~en~ciel who are in hitting 40s. I rewarded myself to their first ever concert to be held in Singapore on 28 Apr 2012 and I attended the brilliant concert with my new Samsung NX-200.

May – Exam period~ Crazy stressful 3 weeks… Couldn’t join (@nD!c3 & co. to US because of that.

JunNonetheless, the sweet bait of going through the exams was a trip to the further place J@z5 and I ever been. United States! From Singapore – Frankfurt – New York – Washington - Niagara – Florida – New York. It was the most impressive place I ever been to! And we swear to bring our kids there again! Lincoln Memorial, White House, Wall Street, Fifth Avenue, Central Park, Broadway, Magic Kingdom, Universal Studios, Epcot Center…. These attractions left us mesmerized and wanting for more. Though coming back to Singapore, attracted lots unwanted remarks like: “Wah.. You rich leh.. I only can afford go JB.” I don’t give a damn…What matters most is the wonderful memories we had there. Totally priceless. =)

Jul – It is a month of Durian season! Had wonderful durian pals to enjoy my favorite fruits on earth. Hahaha!!

Aug – Thanks to j@z5’ colleagues, we had the chance to see this year NDP rehearsal. Nothing impressive but it did uncover my past memories of being a patrol agent for 2005 NDP props and marching contingent in 2006. This is also a month where we celebrated our 12th anniversary of being together since secondary days. The days spent at #AmaraSanctuaryResort was our wonderful moment and dreams came true. (=

 Sept -  It is a month where Formula One comes to Singapore and this year is especially special because #KimiR has returned to F1! I couldn’t bear to purchase the ticket but resorted to “peeping” at Millennia Walk and Marina Square. Thankfully, I have my best pal who doesn’t like F1 to accompany me. Simply Brother~

Oct – Time for exam mugging. But I was also called to check in Nee Soon hotel for annual gathering with my NS pals. Hahaha… Same old sh!t and silly jokes cooked up this time.

Nov A month where #Mum and j@z5 celebrate another 1 year mark. We went for a simple dinner celebration and a late night movie “Ah Boys to Men”. It was a movie that hooked those tough memories of me in BMT. Truly remarkable for Jack Neo to shoot such a movie so close to the true dirty and shitty Army days of every Singapore boy. We really enjoyed it and patiently waiting for the second sequel. However, back to reality, I need to mug for exams… of the 3 papers I took, 1 of them I came out thinking that I surely need to repeat it again.

DecA month of celebration! And my favorite festival of the whole year, Christmas! This year was filled with plenty of parties with my cousins and best pals. It was also something special this year as I was involved in my workplace party. Not really going according to what I thought to be, but the team pulls through. Probably, I took it too seriously. Like what J@z5 says I always give 120% for recreation events. Hahaha.. Perhaps it’s time to let go and concentrate on what it really matters.
So now it is time to get 2013 started with new resolutions. Erm.... Lemme reflect and brainstorm...

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

My last BTPTC e-mail out

24th May 2011

Could not help it but just wanna put this to a memory disk to remind me of the wonderful memories I had and to some ex-colleagues who did not get to see my message to them.

The below message is a final e-mail sent out from my ex-company desktop on 29th April 2011, before 12 noon.



For my ex-colleagues whom I regards as friends now......





"To all my friends at BTPTC,

29th April 2011 mark my last day in BTPTC and I will like to say Thanks and GoodBye.

Since 12th April 2007 where I put my first step into this family, it was a huge leap away from my naive schooling days. It is here, I learnt the way to working life, the important of surviving and how great companionship could keep one motivated to strive on.

Companionship - is the life jacket for Antz to swim n this giantic ocean (BTPTC).Some, probably it's the tough times (knocking door to door or hunting forms during public holidays) we been through, that created the conversations we shared.
Some, whom we barely speak 10 sentences per week, but there's surely topics when we halted by the pantry for a short chat.
Some, who gave me a helping hand to push me higher and guide me through the time where dark cloud blurred me.

While the rest, a simple 'Good Morning' with a smile, did enough to brighten up the start of my day.

Fortunate - is to have you all as my co-workers for the past 4 good years here. Wont forget the laughters we shared during recreational events (Retreat @ Sentosa and D&Ds) and the sweat we dripped during company's missions.

Thank you for all for the companion and the wonderful memories I had here. I sincerely apologize if my words or actions had ever offended you in any way.

I hope the seeds that you had planted with your hard work and time put in, will bloom into a great rewarding havest that you have hope for!

And now, it's really Goodbye and hope we stay in contact (via FB). Take care! = )


Warmest regards, Antz Hong"

The past and fresh

24th May 2011

Started afresh since 4th May 2011 when fresh oxygen circulates through my lungs. Exhaling the old, problematic TPY estate which I had held in my two bare hands for the past 4 years and 1 month. Old and problematic as it is, but filled with a mixture of good and bad memories and most importantly, customers whom I had served.

Poor families who are truly in need of whatever assistance we abled person can lend a hand. An example which make me keep thanking where I live & how healthy and fortunate I am. I visited an unit (I've forgotten the exact unit or block) belongs to an old man who couldn't walk with ease and see as near or far like I could. Placing my first step on the floor it felt surprisingly chilling. Reason being it is plain concrete finish with weathered surface like the wrinkles on his face. He doesn't have the financial support from kins. Keeping her stomach filled solely on social welfare. Even as my feets were wrapped with sport socks, I still walked with some mental restriction where even tip-toe won't help.

I looked at him with enormous sense of pity which almost hit my tears 'button'. I asked if he need any financial assistance, which I could lend a hand. He rejected me politely and said that he is been assisted by social welfare.

Few weeks later, I met him again that the void deck. Walking face to face, however he does not recognize me this time. Probably memory is failing him. I looked his back view, as he staggered his steps. Nothing much I could offer, except my silent wishes for him.

Now, at where I am. Thankfully, I wasn't just thrown into the deep ocean with a life-jacket. I was slowly guided from 1.2m towards 2m mark, in the swimming pool, before I was release into the ocean. Second thanks is that I not going to handle much residents feedback, or rather, our frontline defence (Call centre) is much more organized and not that pushy as compared to my ex-company.

And due to my job scope, I would not be handling those cases (like the one I have mentioned earlier on) where I do put too much emotion in. Probably I gave things too much thought, and tried doing things that are not within my ability, that causes me to really pause long enough for matters to explode. I not saying I am a saint, just that I felt those pity ones really deserve much much better.

Disregard what I had experienced or experiencing, I shall edge forward slowly and gently on this foreign and unknown path ahead. Wish me all the best.



Writing this entry on 3 separate days with different moods and thoughts really mess up the sequence. Guess I gotta stop here, while I plan for another entry to be drafted within that moment......

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Treatment

24 Mar 2011

Continue with my last entry, the therapy I had was truly some truth discovering experience.


Diagnose with a bloated stomach, I was told that it was due to bad vibes that I've locked them down in there. I was asked if there's any bad feelings or thoughts within me, that I hasn't set them free and find a solution to it.


When the therapist found out that the left side of my stomach was actually higher than the right side (I, myself could really feel with my hands that it is truly higher on the left!), she questioned if the problem that haunt me got to do to "females"?

*As female related problem will affect the left side of body, which is what the therapist claimed. I chose to believe.



True as her diagnose. Probably something which I have been undergoing, since the day I stated my wish to head back to where I feel I belong. During those days, dark arrows shot from mystery, were aimed towards me and I swallowed them down and kept it within me.



Never did I ever share it with anyone else, other than Jazs. I'm truly hurt but I kept it all in me. Ties closer than friends, but somehow the relationship seems like oil on water, separating themselves in defining form, that a CLEAR line is formed. The feeling hurts both of us really bad, so bad that our eyes were drenched a couple of time. Those people, who I, myself, respected for the past 27 years, never really spare a thought for us. Never bother to get the FULL details before trying to cool things down. I just have to tell them, that they see (surfaces) things from above, but they certainly do not have the eye power of an eagle. Probably, bats flying in the night, avoiding obstruction with their EARS (only).

Like I've always tell my friends, The 'Antz' you see during work and outings compare to 'ShuiQing' you see at home are from two different worlds.

Antz do wanna bring laughter and fun to all people he met. Speaks nothing but the truth about his feelings & thoughts and reveals all true expressions on his face.

ShuiQing just wanna stay in his room, befriends with his PC. Speaks no more than 10 sentences to those staying under the same roof. Not that ShuiQing cannot be bothered, just that he had tried. Speaking to them makes ShuiQing like a human just talk to them in some Mars or Jupiter languages.

Trying to fix the knot that is so tight for the past 15 years (since I really understand the Way of Living on planet Earth), I finally throw in the towel.

What we want now is just some peace. Let us enjoy our blissful married life with our parents, and the ones who TRULY, SINCERELY wish us best and brighten up our life journey along the way.

Monday, January 10, 2011

A new note

10 Jan 2011

Brand new year, finally started my engine with some boosters for work and my life. Just wanna update the past one exciting month happenings......



Absolutely wonderful ending to year 2010, with Antz & Jazs' wedding which took place on 18 Dec 2010, Park Royal Hotel. Thinking back, I really really miss those fun moments we had.

On 20 Dec 2010, Antz & Jazs went out of SG to the most Northern part of Japan, the legendary Hokkaido. Our first overseas trip with only the both of us. Sweet sweet journey indeed... Scenes and weather simply hugged us like sugar to donut of our honeymoon.

Afterwhich, my poor poor back injury haunted me the next day after I return from Hokkaido. You wont believe how it's striked me. The sharp prick on my back felt throughout my spine as I stood up from the bowl. Not as bad as the one I had on 2010 Jan, but it certainly hit me real bad. Luckily I'm able to walk after lying down for 20 minutes. But I couldn't bend forward from that moment.

Struggled to get back to work, as my Dear Jazs assisted me with tying of shoelaces. Laughters from my colleagues & boss as I expected, after telling them I may need to take leave the next day. Sitting down the alone the coffeeshop, where I continued to feel the pain after 15 minutes into my lunch.

Next two days, were my Rest-Spine-Days... Thank god, it got better after a week of rest and the amazing Bowen theraphy session I had on 28 Dec 2010.

Lemme share with you during my next entry. Need accompany my wife for once!!
= )