When
Shinji attended secondary school one, he was the shy & silly fella who seldom
talks to classmates. So there was a guy who somehow joined the same CCA, Wushu as
Shinji. From then on, they trained during Saturdays, and most of the time, they
walked home together. As the friend stayed near to school, he went home while
Shinji continued his journey back home.
This
friend was true to Shinji, he, who conversed with no sign of hiding. In Shinji’s
memories, this friend was quite a trustworthy friend. Shinji still
remembers till now (unsure if this friend still remembers), there was once they
both sat on a bench at the void deck of this friend’s house. They both spoke
briefly about their family background and some issues they faced with their
family. Certainly, this suggests that there might be a positive amount of mutual trust
between them, which allows them to pour their true words out. Shinji
briefly that this friend of his had a good sister that dote him lots. And he
truly admired him as Shinji wasn’t close to his own sister at all.
However,
time flies… This friend decided to pursue his interest, Chinese Orchestra while
Shinji remained faithful to his passion, Wushu. Added to that, Shinji’s academic
results decline and he was posted to the last class during secondary two. From there
onwards, he and his friend’s relationship distanced. Eventually, they became Hi-Bye
friends by secondary four. They lost contact since then, until they got
connected via Facebook again. But this time, they were merely Facebook friends.
Nothing more, nothing less.
11
March 2013, Shinji saw one of his primary/secondary schoolmates wrote on this
friend’s wall. She was asking him to stay strong and recover soon. Feeling curious,
he checked on this friend’s profile. To Shinji’s surprise, there were lots of
other messages telling this old friend of his to remain strong, keep breathing
& etc. Shinji grew very concerned within himself and he look forward to
check out this friend’s condition or latest update from their friends.
However,
it was the end of whatever checking out or concern….
This
old friend had ascended to another dimension that will take his pain,
struggles, and most importantly his soul away from us. He left the world on 12
March 2013. Saddened as old memories flow back into Shinji’s mind. Moments ago,
Shinji felt like breaking down after reading a blog entry written by his old
friend:
Monday blue doesn’t
just apply to working people only.
For a patient who
requires weekly blood test, I detest Tuesdays.
Because the blast
cells have entered the blood stream, and it’s still growing in numbers.
Because if leukaemia
continues to thrive, chemo and transplant is inevitable.
But if the blood test
shows stable blast quantity, I’ll have another week of happiness!
But if the blood test
shows stable blast quantity, I’ll have another Tuesday blue.
Living week by week.
I can’t confirm my
attendance for gatherings or friends’ weddings that’s not within this week.
I can only confirm
meet up after Tuesday’s blood test, when I’ll know if my immunity is okay.
Living week by week.
I don’t know if I’ll
get to use my passport if I renew it.
I don’t know if I’ll
get married and start a family.
I don’t know if I’ll
get to chase my dreams.
Life is so much full
of uncertainties.
We can’t control every
thing.
But we can control our
emotions and attitude.
Life is not for us to
dwell on the past.
Life is not for us to
worry about the future.
Life is living in the
moment.
His story: http://www.asiaone.com/print/News/Latest%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20121231-392592.html
Shinji
count himself extremely fortunate… For this friend whom they didn’t meet along the
streets for almost 13 years, he didn’t expect to meet again through this way. Never…
I’m
sorry that I’m suddenly caught in a moment of sadness that I don’t know to
write a meaningful ending for this entry. I just hope that this friend’s spirit
lives on and his story will inspires others around. If you think you are in the
worse situation or environment, you aren’t. look beyond your problems, you may
be much much fortunate to be able to breathe easily without an idea when is
your final moments on earth.
Bye my
friend, you'll be better off up there. Take care~
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