插班生 - 逞强

27 Mar 2013

不常看电视节目的我，就在一次用餐时听到从客厅电视传来的这首歌，就被它吸引住。
美声~




A repost from facebook... Hope to sing this in ktv someday (if i rememeber).

Stay strong!!

22 Mar 2013

I was truly frightened moments ago...

After purchasing our dinner at Dominos, we were happily walking back towards the car, where she tripped upon an uneven floor and she fell forward. My jaws dropped and darted towards her. It was a fearful moment for us...

As her worrying tears flowed, my inner self crashed... but I just cant reveal that part of me. She needed my support.

Upon reaching home, we started talking to the little one inside her tummy. And we were glad that this lovely fella responded to our calls and start to wobble within. This ease bit of his Mummy’s worry and my heart calmed down.

Though there was no unusual finding, I still feel that a trip down to the gynaecologist will make us feel better.

Stay strong my little boy, and I hope to see u soon... =)

New Target

17 Mar 2013

New targets for Shinji:

1. Complete NIKE 10km - WE RUN SG 2013
2. Complete Standard Chartered Marathon 21km

Remembering an old friend, Ryan

13 Mar 2013

When Shinji attended secondary school one, he was the shy & silly fella who seldom talks to classmates. So there was a guy who somehow joined the same CCA, Wushu as Shinji. From then on, they trained during Saturdays, and most of the time, they walked home together. As the friend stayed near to school, he went home while Shinji continued his journey back home.

This friend was true to Shinji, he, who conversed with no sign of hiding. In Shinji’s memories, this friend was quite a trustworthy friend. Shinji still remembers till now (unsure if this friend still remembers), there was once they both sat on a bench at the void deck of this friend’s house. They both spoke briefly about their family background and some issues they faced with their family. Certainly, this suggests that there might be a positive amount of mutual trust between them, which allows them to pour their true words out. Shinji briefly that this friend of his had a good sister that dote him lots. And he truly admired him as Shinji wasn’t close to his own sister at all.

However, time flies… This friend decided to pursue his interest, Chinese Orchestra while Shinji remained faithful to his passion, Wushu. Added to that, Shinji’s academic results decline and he was posted to the last class during secondary two. From there onwards, he and his friend’s relationship distanced. Eventually, they became Hi-Bye friends by secondary four. They lost contact since then, until they got connected via Facebook again. But this time, they were merely Facebook friends. Nothing more, nothing less.

11 March 2013, Shinji saw one of his primary/secondary schoolmates wrote on this friend’s wall. She was asking him to stay strong and recover soon. Feeling curious, he checked on this friend’s profile. To Shinji’s surprise, there were lots of other messages telling this old friend of his to remain strong, keep breathing & etc. Shinji grew very concerned within himself and he look forward to check out this friend’s condition or latest update from their friends.

However, it was the end of whatever checking out or concern….

This old friend had ascended to another dimension that will take his pain, struggles, and most importantly his soul away from us. He left the world on 12 March 2013. Saddened as old memories flow back into Shinji’s mind. Moments ago, Shinji felt like breaking down after reading a blog entry written by his old friend:

Monday blue doesn’t just apply to working people only.

For a patient who requires weekly blood test, I detest Tuesdays.

Because the blast cells have entered the blood stream, and it’s still growing in numbers.

Because if leukaemia continues to thrive, chemo and transplant is inevitable.

But if the blood test shows stable blast quantity, I’ll have another week of happiness!

But if the blood test shows stable blast quantity, I’ll have another Tuesday blue.

 

Living week by week.

I can’t confirm my attendance for gatherings or friends’ weddings that’s not within this week.

I can only confirm meet up after Tuesday’s blood test, when I’ll know if my immunity is okay.

 

Living week by week.

I don’t know if I’ll get to use my passport if I renew it.

I don’t know if I’ll get married and start a family.

I don’t know if I’ll get to chase my dreams.

 

Life is so much full of uncertainties.

We can’t control every thing.

But we can control our emotions and attitude.

Life is not for us to dwell on the past.

Life is not for us to worry about the future.

Life is living in the moment.

 

His story: http://www.asiaone.com/print/News/Latest%2BNews/Singapore/Story/A1Story20121231-392592.html

Shinji count himself extremely fortunate… For this friend whom they didn’t meet along the streets for almost 13 years, he didn’t expect to meet again through this way. Never…

I’m sorry that I’m suddenly caught in a moment of sadness that I don’t know to write a meaningful ending for this entry. I just hope that this friend’s spirit lives on and his story will inspires others around. If you think you are in the worse situation or environment, you aren’t. look beyond your problems, you may be much much fortunate to be able to breathe easily without an idea when is your final moments on earth.

Bye my friend, you'll be better off up there. Take care~

 

Dont deserve to be titled

10 Mar 2013

“In the past, I don’t remember seeing you facing such difficulties in your university studies…….”

Upon hearing this, blazing flames burn Shinji’s mind almost immediately……

F*** you seriously....

Worried~

8 Mar 2013

Assignment struggling... Couldn’t concentrate at all....

Stomach been “thanking” (“XIE”) non-stop since Monday....

Shinji needs motivation...

And this morning appointment revealed that the little one still hasn’t get into position for his big day, makes his poor Mum and Dad worry. *especially Mummy. Shinji just pray hard that naughty little boy will turn his head downwards once he has enough fun swimming. Mummy’s swimming pool getting cramp there, so watch you time ok! Get in position when it matters.

Shinji is sure you will! =D