Shinji found out something. He
couldn’t take it. He wanted to scream it out loud at the other party but he
just couldn’t do it. He wasn’t sure if the other party was always trying to
proof Shinji wrong or what.
It just doesn’t matter to
Shinji. Shinji is tired. Probably and fortunately it’s only mentally tired. He tried
over these years to accept and bear with it. But the feeling of anger just comes
stronger each time and the worst part is he doesn’t know what to do or who to
tell. With all friends occupied with their own lives, a damaged disconnection
from his kin, he doesn’t have much choice. Neither can he narrate his pain to
his beloved. Simply can’t do it.
Haha… Shinji have always been
positive and patience and high tolerance fella. But he ain’t some super hero. He
isn’t an emotionless robot. I guess his friends know, his kin, his beloved
know. But what can they do when Shinji “loves” to gobble awful thoughts down him!
