I felt fear and sadness
every time he was being taken away from me. Since young, I’ve been experiencing
stuffs being “conquered” and seized in front of me. Probably, those aren’t things
that I hold so much affection, ownership in me. That didn’t managed to hurt me
so bad.
However, ever since this
little fella comes into my life, I felt there is something that I really treasure
and fearing day & night that he might be taken away from me or worry that he
isn’t closely tied to me.
Similarly, there are
many things that we had accomplished or still trying to achieve, we usually
failed in the first few attempts. It is through persevering mentality and some
examples where we learnt of our shortcomings and avoid similar mistakes, in
order to attain the desired outcome or object.
Ya.. examples…. Examples
should usually be demonstrated in a easily understood method and positive
attitude. However, there isn’t any element of that in examples being shown to
me. I was simply dumped aside and left to think how could I have do it better. And
certainly this leads to bad blood between me and the other party.
I couldn’t stand the
sight of….. neither would I wanna live under the same roof with….. regrettably,
I’ve no Plan B. F…. ya.. really F.. and screwed up.
To makes thing worse,
those character and attitude are probably those attributes which I detest the
most in my whole life. I know I’m not perfect, I, too have my shortcomings and
undesirable attitudes. But I guess I didn’t portray them that much and I’ve
somehow toned down bits, due to the life experiences I had and my unwillingness
to invite more problem for my lovely girl.
As Cesar says, either we
choose to Oppose, Submit or Avoid. As a member of the pack, I’ve chose “Avoidance”
in order not to destroy the team cohesiveness. Simply not worthwhile.
